Friday, 27 January 2012

"One day" by David Nicholls

This review is probably a little late, way behind the wave of movie-goers. This wonderful novel did not find its way to the top of bestseller lists for nothing, did it? For a long time, I was very sceptical about reading this novel. It seemed so very predictable to me, as well as being slightly annoying as everyone I met was constantly talking about it! With the trailers swamping the internet, I could not resist to take a little sneak-peak, which eventually made me think, "Maybe I should give this a go, after all."

So, wo and a half days ago, the novel found its way into my hands. A friend had just read and loved it - so I decided to give it a try. Dog-eared and clearly adored by its previous reader, I dove into the story at the beginning of two free periods. The story begins with Emma Morley, an opinionated and ambitious girl, and Dexter Mayew, who cares more about being handsome than being smart, in bed. A typical morning-after, they are making that fateful decision: friends or lovers? This question hovers between them throughout the entire story. Their not-getting-together is mostly down to miscommunication and pride.

Two hours later I surfaced from Dexter and Emma's world feeling as though the warning bell was pulling me by the hair. How could I go back to class now, when the letter had just been lost, the letter that said everything? How could the world go on without me knowing what happened next? When I was finally free of the classroom -  two distracted hours behind me spent worrying about what would become of them - I immersed myself again.

Much of that day was spent reading, as was today until finally, finally, feeling quite exhausted and hungry, I closed the doors of their world behind me again.

Well, I have to say that this book was a real tease. It lets you hang there by a thread, hoping that maybe this time it will work out between the two of them. Even as Dexter drinks himself through several years as a hapless TV-presenter despised by the public, frequently changes lovers and treats Emma horribly when she needs him most, you cannot hate him. The reader knows exactly that, if they could just get over themselves and tell one another how they feel, everything would be allright. In the end, it takes Dex and Em more than 15 years to manage this.



It was hard to feel sorry for self-righteous, snobbish Dexter during his time on television. While Emma became the inspiring "care diem"-type teacher she had always dreamt of being, he is drunk for almost the entire middle part of the novel. To be honest, I felt quite annoyed with his childish behaviour and with Emma for putting up with a boyfriend she did not love.

While I was reading this novel, I was constantly thinking: "Why don't you just get over yourselves?! He loves you, you love him, JUST SAY IT!" Nicholls only shows one day of their lives every year. More than fifteen chapters of disappointment and frustration on my part, they finally get together. Of course. You hope for this from the beginning of the novel because you know they are just right for each other - opposites attract and all that - and when it fnally happens and there are more than 70 pages to go, there is a twinge of fear in your stomach. "This is not over yet", you keep thinking, hoping against hope that they will live happily ever after.

I will not give away the end of this novel, even though it was very important in shaping my opinion. That is for everyone to read for themselves.

All in all, "One day" is one those books one reads in an addicted rush. It's the kind of book that won't let you sleep at night for fear of missing something. And there's an important message to it: don't wait too long, seize the opportunity to say how you feel. If not, you may lose the only thing that really matters to you. "One day" is definitely a carpe diem book and through all the sad parts you cannot help but fall in love with Dexter and Emma. Both characters are incredibly real in their mistakes, their dashed hopes and never-realised dreams. It is only when they finally let go that they find each other. This book is as much about love and friendship as it is about growing up and adjusting to the ever-changing world. Many have called this book wise, and I do agree with them.

I recommend this book, though I would not count is among my favourites. There is too much sadness in this story, too many what-ifs. It would have liked to see Dex and Em together from the start and I hoped very much for a happily-ever-after, but that would not have made it such an intriguing book now, would it?





 I think Jim Sturgess and Anne Hathaway look good as Dex and Em, don't you think? Especially Dexter.
Love, x

Thursday, 26 January 2012

Plans & Preparations

There is nothing quite is wonderful as opening your eyes in the morning and finding your room golden from dappling sunlight. The sun is leaking through the blinds onto the carpet, onto your bed, searching for your face. Then that first, luxurious morning stretch, a deep sigh.

After weeks of living under a thick cover of grey clouds, the sun looked like a golden drop of honey to me. The sky a brilliant blue it hung there in the sky and it put an instant smile on my face. Looking outside to see the trees and the grass covered in a crisp layer of frost, I knew it would be my favourite type of day: clear and cold and sunny.



While I went for a morning walk, I contemplated the past few weeks of the new year. Planning for the time after graduation is well under way (traveling, traveling, more traveling), as well as the stuying schedule. Another project of mine is, commonly enough, getting in shape for spring and summer. After weeks spent inside munching on cookies and chocolate and heavenly cake it is now time to "lighten the load" a little in time for the warmer seasons. It's tough mind work, as any woman probably knows only too well, especially cutting back severly on sugar. But then again, being fit and in shape is a good reason to do it. And looking nice in summer dresses and swimwear ...

All in all, it's been some incredibly work-intense weeks and I am in dire need of some relaxation before the exams begin ... I hope that with careful planning and much discipline, everything will work out as I need it to. Especially since there are really only little more than 1 and a half months of school to complete!

Anxiety and excitement are both present in equal measure in my head, but for the moment at least, anxiety has grown very, very quiet. Picking universities, looking into application forms - all part of the future. For now, I am looking forward to next week, a week of culture and relaxation, spending time with good friends ...

For the moment, there's winter to enjoy. No snow yet - that picture is just wishful thinking - but then again, I almost feel like having spring again!

Hope you are all well!
Love, x

Tuesday, 24 January 2012

If I could dream myself away on a cloud of mist and longing ... I miss the smell of salt water, sea spray on my face. I miss this place more than anything right now.






If you could dream yourself away, where would you go?

Love, x

Monday, 9 January 2012

Open your eyes

Open your eyes,
to the crazy, spinning world all around.
Open your arms,
it will rush to your chest.
Open your heart,
to let in the warmth, you must let in the cold.
Open your eyes, open them wide.

Blurry, scary world around us,
dancing, falling, spinning, stopping.
Throw us off, make us jump,
call us back, hold us closer.
Open your eyes, open them wide,
open your heart, you have nothing to hide.

Lock and key, try them, trust them,
no need for a key with an open heart.
No need for fear with wide-open arms.
A blow to the chest cannot pierce a heart. 
No need for fear, it has willingly opened.

Open your eyes, open them wide.
Embrace your life, fear not your strength.
Open your eyes, open your heart.



The poetry of our lives is not the written word in a book, but the truth in our own hearts.

Love, x

Saturday, 7 January 2012

The particular happiness of beef lasagna

There is nothing quite as gorgeous or delicious than home-made, golden-baked, cheese-and-tomato lasagna heaven. Yes, I needed that many adjectives to describe the particular beauty of today's lunch. I think it's all about the time you put into making this delectable treat, the chopping and stirring and bubbling of sauces. Spending two hours in the kitchen seems more than adequate if you are being rewarded with this divine dish. Since the weather has been grey and rainy all through the past week, I decided a real treat was in order for my family. My grandmother said it could have fed an entire football team. As it happened, it was barely enough for four people! 
 

There is a reason this kind of dish is called soul food. It makes you feel warm inside on a blustery day such as today, with rain pattering on the windows. Filled to the brim with this lasagna heaven, I now sit and reflect on the day. The first thing that made me so happy was making the lasagna, the slow process of it and the wait before getting it out of the oven. The air of excitement in the house as everyone was slowly driven mad with longing by the cheesy smell. And the joy of seeing it disappear in about ten minutes, with exclamations of delight.
It is such a wonderful feeling to give something back to my loving, wonderful family. Even if it's just a little slice of lasagna.

Love, x

Tuesday, 3 January 2012

Happy New Year!

2012 is now three days old, already full of promise for the future. I want to share only one bit of wisdom I heard a few days ago:


"Our greatest fear is not failure. Our greatest fear is being inadequate." 

So, this year, I will fear even less, dare even more. I will no longer be afraid of my own shadow but dare to seize the greatness we all carry within. I will no longer fear failure. I will be braver. I will not listen to people telling me how I should do something. I cannot fail if I believe I can do it. Let's see what the new year holds! 

Happy New Year! 
Love, x